I approached the end of my short yoga session and reached a shavasana. As I got into the corps pose, I remembered about the practice of imagining myself laying in a freshly dug burial hole. Why not multitask – two practices for the time of one! And almost immediately I got to the peace of […]
Answers come always
About synchronicity and how the answers come to me. I actually have known for a very long time that answers come to me in unexpected ways – I only need to become aware of the question. It is fun to register the funny ways in which they come. Monday we were driving to the swimming […]
On the Road to God
August 18, 2009 I wrote: “Yes, I am going back to God. It isn’t easy, and I’d have given up if there were anywhere better to go…” F****! It is 2013 and I am still in the same shit! I am so tired. I want to be home already…
Hurrah! Hurrah! Hurrah!
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God and I. We had words.
I drew myself today. And it felt rather good. Don’t know why I was afraid of doing it, kept postponing and procrastinating. I felt relieved, back in something real, back in somewhere honest. And yes, I am going to God. It isn’t easy. I would have given up, if there were anywhere better to go. […]
As far as the structure…
As far as the spiritual structure concerned, I’ve figured the following: – Adopting any existing structure is not for me. The more religious, dogmatic, devotional it is – the more repelling; – Taking any given philosophy/teaching on the whole is not for me; – My way is – pick & mix. The philosophy I am forming in principal […]
Point of living
I decided, that the whole point of living is actually having fun. And all the great teachers were talking precisely about that, only the further in time, the more the message got distorted, and for centuries millions and millions were doing the suffering, imagining, that that was the instruction.
…and a teacher
Looking for a structure is linked up with a search for the spiritual teacher. I am looking. Or waiting. Another thing which was a barrier on my way of accepting the spiritual nature of my search is my association of the word “spiritual” with all sorts of creepy sects, people with mental problems, dancing and […]
Looking for the spiritual structure
And so, I am looking. It is Wednesday. I feel as some resistance in me is gradually lifting up. I think I allow the destiny to take it course and allow myself to believe, that that course will be the most exciting, happy and beneficial for me and all my people. Now I can see the […]
Being trapted in one’s body…
In my 20-es I didn’t remind myself much about it, because I was busy with things, I suppose. Nowadays I think about that experience rather regurlarly, trying to figure, if it was a kind of spiritual experience like some of the people get and talk about. What prompted me to those memories again is this: […]